Thursday, September 30, 2004


THE ANGELS CAME AGAIN TODAY Posted by Hello

THE ANGELS WERE SENT AGAIN TODAY

The Lord has sent his angels today
to take another loved one away.
He took my ma-maw with him to stay
to fly in the heavens, so far away.

Out of this earth, away from the strife
free from the cancer that took her life.
Free from the pains that she endured
burying 4 children and so much more.

With my mother is were she'll be
a loss that's still so hard on me.
At least I know that she's up there
giving her all the love we long to share.

Away from this world she did fly
into the heavens so very high.
Up to all the loved ones waiting there
Another beautiful angel for heaven to share.

Today I know our love did show
through our pain we let her go.
She's at peace were she should be
up in heaven now she is free.

Copyrights:JoyceWilbanksIvy©9-30-04

Today at 12:18 the Lord sent his angels to take my grandmother to heaven to be with my mother and her other 3 children and so many more loved ones she has there. A loss that is very hard for us because we just lost our mother 4 weeks ago on 9-3-04. But I do find peace in my heart for her as I did with my mothers death because I know they are in heaven and no longer have to suffer from the things in this world...I love you Ma-maw Pete.... You will always be in my heart as will my mother....

I LOVE YOU Posted by Hello

YOUR LOVING TOUCH

I think about my life
how it's changed so much.
One single day
your loving touch.

To look on life
as it was back then.
I didn't know
just how i'd win.

All your love
it feels so good.
Makes me feel
just how I should.

To look back now
I never knew.
Exactly what
your love would do.

You changed my life
so very much.
That one day
your loving touch.

Copyrights:JoyceWilbanksIvy©2004

Wednesday, September 29, 2004

JANIECE

Guess what janiece i am starting to wonder abut that butterfly...it is still visiting me...lands on me everytime i go outside...did again today.... little strange isn't it....anyway love ya...joyce

TO BE NEAR YOU IS WHAT I NEED Posted by Hello

IF I CLOSE MY EYES

If I close my eyes... we can be together;
In this place where only I can see you.
If I close my eyes... your touch warms my body
I can feel the strength of your passion soothe me.

In a world so large, how did I manage to find you?
Like a soft breeze, you so gently walked into my life.
From the moment my eyes first looked upon you
I was taken forever, lost inside of you...

I can feel your lips press against mine.
How your scent intoxicates me
As I run my hands across your face,
Only to save your scent to run across mine.

Do you know that you have captured me?
I am forever under your spell.
When I see you walking towards me
My heart skips and butterflies are all about me.

I need to feel your heart race against my body.
The heat from your body is all I need.
Will you wrap your arms around me?
I need to breathe the same rhythm as you.

Oh, how you've taken my breath away.
My love, my desire to be with you grows.
The love I feel inside - burns.
Take me back to the place where the waves crashed;

Where only the moon shed its light on your face.
How do I make my fairytale come true?
What is the price I need to pay?
Only with you will I find my happy ending.

If I close my eyes we can be together
In the place where only I can see you.
I promise to love you forever;
I will never take my love away from you.
I promise to love you forever...

Tuesday, September 28, 2004

BEAUTIFUL


Ascending To The Heavens Posted by Hello

MAMA I CAN SEE

Mama I can see you
as you assend that beautiful staircase
up so very high
way up to the heavens
with the lord by your side.

Mama I can see you
when you've reached the very top
what a spectrum it must have been
to walk with the lord as your friend.

Mama I can see you
at those pearly gates
your arms stretched out to hold your son
something you had wanted for so long.

Mama I can see you
way up there, in the heavens
your arms around your father
happier than ever.

Mama I can see you
when you look down on me
you know I am happy
because I know you are where you want be.


MY HEART KNEW


I JUST KNEW Posted by Hello

I KNEW

I will never forget that day
as long as I shall live.
When dad called and said
get here as fast as time will allow.

I heard the desperation in his voice
as it trembled, soft and low.
I knew before I got there
it was your time to go.

Those few miles between us
seemed a thousand on that day.
I knew before I got there
Mama, you couldn't stay.

I walked into that room
to see you laying there,
my heart stopped beating
for I knew you weren't there.

I could see there was no life left in you,
no matter how hard they tried.
God had sent his angels
and there was nothing we could do.

As I sat there beside you,
I held your hand and I begged you to breath.
My heart was ripped out that day
for a part of me was taken away.

I knew at that moment as I looked down at you,
I would never see you in this life again.
But one thing I do know
I will see you again when it's my time to go.

LOOK MOM...


A Flower Just For You... Posted by Hello

I MISS YOU MOM

life has been so hard since my mothers death
all the things she'd done for us
and all the love that she expressed
we didn't know until she was gone
just how much she'd really done.
sitting with my father today and hearing him say
he missed her most when he driving down the road alone
and just how nice it would be to pass her on the road
like he had done so many times before.
it broke my heart and made me want to bust into tears,
for I have had the same thoughts myself so many times.
we miss you mama more than you will ever know.

Sunday, September 26, 2004


MOM AND DAD SO MANY YEARS OF LOVE THEY DID SHARE Posted by Hello

MY FATHER'S STARE

I sit and think of my mother today
in the heavens so far away
Where she belongs, I know it's true
but here on earth it makes us blue.

Sometimes the pain is so hard to bear
especially when I watch my fathers stare.
I know he thinks of her everyday
wondering why she had to go away.

As her children we've been through so much
but think of our father who misses her touch.
With all the love they once shared
I know he's thinking life's unfair.

He has been so strong for us
inside I know it must be tough.
47 years of love they shared
I guess that's why he sits and stares.

He knows he'll see her once he's gone
I think that's what keeps him so very strong.
He needs that love they once shared
I guess for now he'll sit and stare.

Copyrights:JoyceWilbanksIvy©2004

Saturday, September 25, 2004


--- Posted by Hello

I STAND MY GROUND

so many things in life today
makes me want to run so far away.
but I stand fast and hold my ground
I'll make this life turn around.

so long ago I gave up on life
it had cut through me like a knife.
something inside me wants to know
and let this love inside me grow.

finding a love that's never been
something inside me wants to win.
all this love thats inside of him
he's so different from all of them.

he shows me a love I never knew
sometimes I don't know just what to do.
with this love I found with him
I know I love him from deep within.

so in this life I stand my ground
in our hearts we are bound
in my life so safe and sound
I want this love that I have found.





Friday, September 24, 2004


LOST IN TIME Posted by Hello

Thursday, September 23, 2004

A MOMENT IN TIME

as I look back in time
to a day when we were so young,
a day when we didn't see
just living life as fast as could be.

not caring what happened
just wanting to be free.
we did alot of things
we just didn't see.

but thats all in the past
and it's already been done.
I do forgive you,
and I hope you do me.

we had a daughter, you and me
a beautiful little girl just for me.
one good thing that did come
from our marriage you see.

she is grown and on her own
making her mistakes , just as we've done.
not doing as we would like,
but just think back neither did we.

she has to learn own her own
all we can do is try to guide her
as hard as it may be
with gods help she will be ok.

she has given us two grandchrildren to love
something so special in our lives.
Caremen and Jacob
two more things we can be proud of.

alot has changed
since way back then
and I hope through all of this
we can still remain friends

you have a wife that you really love
something I am very proud of.
three beautiful girls, that you really enjoy
I am proud to see you happy in your life.

but most of all, what I am really proud of most
is the christian you have turned out to be.
so when I look back in this moment in time
I really am proud of what you have become.


Steve i am very proud of how you changed your life and the man you have become. I am glad you have Kim and your girls and that you are as happy in the life you have together. Cherish what you both have and i wish you both the happiest of lives.



HE BEARS ALL FOR US Posted by Hello

SO MANY CROSSES TO BEAR

we bear so many crosses
the load so heavy at times.
our lives so filled with anger
sometimes thats all we can find.

saddness filled with heartache
so many crosses to endure.
none harder than this death
I have to overcome.

death should be a deliverance
for this I do believe.
away from all these heartaches
this world has bestowed upon me.

our lives overcast by shadows
at times too hard to bear.
one day death will overtake us
and I will welcome it, when it's there.

when I think about these crosses
there's one thing that come to mind.
there's one man that carried all these crosses
so we could have pease of mind.

Wednesday, September 22, 2004


TAKE HER HAND IN FLIGHT Posted by Hello

ANGEL OF DEATH

as I listen to my heart
it still begins to cry.
it cannot comprehend
what I feel inside.

is this just a phantom
an illusion I have inside.
or is this something else
I have to take in stride.

death is not an illusion
from it we cannot hide.
it takes you when it wants you
even when you cry.

death is just around the corner
so don't even try to fight.
when the angel of death comes for you
just take her hand in flight.

Saturday, September 18, 2004

HEART FILLED WITH SADNESS


--- Posted by Hello

MY GRIEF

There are so many things, in my heart today
so many things, my mind begins to stray.
Heart field with saddness, from my mothers death,
wondering why life, has to treats us this way.

Knowing it's a part of life, but not wanting it that way.
I miss her so much, every single day.
Why can't we turn back time, to just that one day
so I can tell her I loved her, more than words could ever say.

I know time heals, thats what they all say
but for right now my heart, is in disbelief.
From my mothers death, there's so much grief
I didn't want her to go, why couldn't she stay.

In my heart I know, she's in a better place,
it's just something i wasn't ready to face.
A life without my mother,
will be hard for to take.


Thursday, September 16, 2004


----- Posted by Hello

BITTER MEMORIES

Don't know why I kept myself hidden
from this world, so deep inside.
My heart aching from the sorrows,
was all that I could find.

Days of bitter somber,
so dark and gloomy inside.
My heart so filled with anger,
all I wanted to do was run and hide.

Made my life so lonely,
you tore me up inside.
Took a part of my life,
that I am now trying to find.

I am finally finding myself again,
trying to regain my pride.
Never again will you do this,
no matter how hard you still try.

I have taken control of my life,
something you will never know.
For today all you are,
is a tormented soul.

When I look back on our life together
the things we once shared.
In my heart all I seem to find,
are all these bitter memories inside.

But somewhere in this I forgive you
for the pain you caused inside.
For I know your heart is cold and bitter
from all the memories you have inside.

I know if you will ever forget, all these things you hold inside.
From all the things in your life,
and the bitter memories you have inside.
Your life would be enriched, just as mine.

So with this I forgive you
and hope you do the same.
And live a life, of love and happiness,
and let go, of these bitter memories, we both have inside.








Wednesday, September 15, 2004


LOVE Posted by Hello

TOGETHER FOREVER YOU AND ME

With all the hardships, I face today
your love still shines through, in everyway.
You are there, when I need you most
even if not in body, I feel you in my heart.

I wish you were here, every single day
but thats not what life has in store, for us today.
But when that day comes, for me and you
I know there will be a love there thats true.

For now our love, is a distance apart
but everyday you are in my heart.
For now our love will have to be that way
until we find that beautiful day.

A time when we can share life wonders
all the dreams we have inside our hearts.
The way our lives really should be
together forever you and me.

Sunday, September 12, 2004

WE MISS YOU MAMA


WE LOVE YOU BOTH VERY MUCH Posted by Hello

WISH YOU WERE HERE

Mama we are missing you so bad today..wish i could walk in the house and see you laying on you bed sleeping...i know i am being selfish...but i love you mama...we've been looking though pictures found one of my favorites of you and dad so i posted it here so i can look at it each time i come here to write... i know you are in a better place mama but i miss you so much...it is so hard to bare sometimes...this morning i put on your favorite red shirt and Taylor looked up at me and said..you look just like grandmama...made me cry...they miss you so much mama.... we all do... you and dad have always showed us so much love..we were very lucky to have you two together all our lives..and mama... papa misses you very bad too. he keeps telling me...the last thing he remembered you say to him was... I LOVE YOU...AND I THANK YOU FOR THAT MAMA. THANK YOU FOR LOVING ALL OF US EVERYDAY OF YOUR LIFE.... I LOVE YOU SO MUCH MAMA....

For It Can Leave You With The Blink Of An Eye.. Posted by Hello

ALWAYS REMEMBER

When your racing through this life
stop for awhile...and think really hard.
Think about the ones you love
and always remember...to tell them how feel.

Today you have them... tomorrow you just don't know
you may not have that chance.
Because they can leave you... with the blink of an eye.
So always remember to tell them, how much they are loved.

Life is to short...to let one day go by,
without telling everyone in you life,
just how much you care.
So always remember,to tell them how you feel.

Don't live with these regrets,
I live with today.
All the things I didn't tell,
when I didn't remember, to tell my mama how I felt...






The Beauty Of Your Countryside


As Seen By Janiece The Weekend You Died...So Beautiful...Just Like You Mom...Posted by Hello
With all this saddness in my heart for the loss of my mother... because of her last night i found the happiness i was feeling just before her death...I feel her telling me to go on with life and be happy...she is where she is suppose to be... And for you mama i really want to be happy...

THE MOST BEAUTIFUL ANGEL OF ALL Posted by Hello

NO MORE TEARS IN HEAVEN

So many tears...left here on earth
for all of us to cry... for we miss her so.
But there's no more tears in heaven,
for mama, will never have to cry.

On that day... when it's our time to go,
mama will be there, guiding our way.
So we don't have to cry... because I know
there are no more tears in heaven... for mama to cry.

She'll be standing there... with her beautiful smile
her arms stretched out...to show us the way.
Showing us her love...as she did everyday,
for there are no more tears... for her in heaven.

In my heart I know... she wants us to be happy
and live our lives... even though she's gone.
To show our love for each other...as she has always done,
for there are no more tears in heaven...for my mama to cry.

Friday, September 10, 2004

Out of My Mind...Crazy...


I feel so Empty Posted by Hello

LOSING MY MIND

Got up at 4 this morning feeling like i am losing my mind.all day today losing my freaking mind.what do i do.i can't go through this again...i can't take it... god tell me what to do.... everything is going wrong...driving me crazy..please god not again....

Thursday, September 09, 2004

PEACE FOR MAMA


PEACE Posted by Hello

MISSING YOU

Mom i woke up this morning thinking of you and how you will never meet Tony..i told you all about him and how happy you were for me... don't worry about me mom i will be ok...it's just that we all miss you so much...Jenny and Julie are having a harder time now where i was at first. Poor little Teddy is having it hard also..Tony tring to hide his feelings but we all know deep inside he is hurting too...My (your) girls are dealing pretty good..they break at times...but mama when i sat at your graveside i made you a promise to try to keep things as normal as i could for them and i will... Daddy wants them to still stay ay your home and Julie, Jenny, and Mandy have told me they will help with them...So don't worry mama i will try my best not to let Ben keep them while i work...i know you don't want that and neither do i.. They will be ok mama...Daddy is missing you so much...he was here yesterday..all he can do is talk about you... seems like thats all we do these days. I laughed at him..he said Jenny wouldn't let him do anything..not even let him put on his own socks..lol...i laughted and told him to tell her you didn't even put his socks on him...lol... he said every time he gets up to get a cup of coffee she would grab the cup out of his hand...mama she's spoiling him to much...Mama i miss you so much...we all do...Mom there is one thing dad said that has helpped his so much..he said the last thing he remembers you saying was I LOVE YOU....We were so lucky mom to have you and dad together all these years...and we all thank you both for that.Your moms not far behind you i can see it in her everyday when i go to the cemetary to sit by your grave..i stop and talk to her...i told her you would be standing there waiting on her...She couldn't come to your funeral but janiece showed her your pictures and i took her a plant..she was so happy to get it...I will visit you often mom and you will always be in my heart...I love you...

ANGEL OF LOVE Posted by Hello

Wednesday, September 08, 2004

HEAVENS BEAUTY

There's a beauty in heaven today...for all angels to see,
that beauty is my mama...so pretty was she.
Taken away so suddenly from me... for her son she went to see,
but in gods love I know... thats the way he wanted it to be.

Hair a sparkling brown...and so very pretty to me,
her hands so slender... so beautiful you see.
Hands I wanted to hold... till they put her in the ground,
something I will miss...more than anything around.

Eyes that sparkled... when she looked at you,
for there was a love there...that we all knew.
A love that will see us through...this life I know,
a love we'll never forget...for she'll still show.

Now there's an angel in heaven...for everyone to see,
the most beautiful angel...there could ever be.
An angel we will miss forever ...but at least we know she's free.
My mama is the most beautiful angel... I know there will ever be...


Tuesday, September 07, 2004

THIS ROSE BURNS FOREVER FOR YOU MAMA


MY LOVE BURNS FOREVER FOR YOU Posted by Hello

FLYING THOUGH THE HEAVENS JUST THE THREE

Flying though the heavens ...today i do see,
mama, Terry and papaw are free.
Their wings are as beautiful... as they can be,
sparkling in the heavens...just the three.

Exploring the heavens...with the love they need,
only the love... for just you three,
It's the only thing in life...that I can see,
a wonderful love...that just had to be.

Sharing a love we've already seen,
it will be more love... than they'll ever need.
Now that love...is for just you three,
we give this to you...freely from our hearts to see.

We will miss her...I hope you do see
but it's a love, I want for you three.
So soar though the heavens...and one day we will all share,
all this love I see up there.



Monday, September 06, 2004


I LOVE YOU MOM Posted by Hello

Sunday, September 05, 2004

SO MUCH SADNESS

TODAY MAMA IS REALLY A HAZE TO ME. WE BURIED YOU TODAY..THE HARDEST THING I HAVE EVER HAD TO FACE ALONE. I KNOW MAMA YOU ALWAYS SAID I WAS YOUR STRONGEST CHILD, BUT AGAIN I FAILED YOU MAMA. I KNOW YOU WOULD HAVE WANTED ME TO HOLD UP FOR DADDY AND THE OTHER KIDS, BUT MAMA I COULDN'T... I FELL APART AND I AM SO SORRY...PLEASE FORGIVE ME..IT WAS ONLY THAT I LOVED YOU SO MUCH AND I NEVER GOT A CHANCE TO TELL YOU THAT...OH MAMA I MISS YOU SO MUCH RIGHT NOW...I DON'T KNOW HOW TO GO ON..I DON'T KNOW HOW TO HELP JORDAN AND TAYLOR THROUGH THIS...I CAN'T EVEN HELP MYSELF THROUGH IT...I FEEL SO ALONE RIGHT NOW...WITH ALL MY HEART I LOVE YOU MAMA AND I AM SO SORRY I FAILED YOU AGAIN...

Saturday, September 04, 2004

SHE NOW FLIES WITH THE ANGELS


HEAVENLY BEAUTY Posted by Hello

HEARTACHE BEYOND BELIEF

Tonight my heart aches ...i lost my mama today at 5:00, she had a massive heart attack... oh god my sister tried so hard to save her..but she just couldn't...what will we do without her..what will my girls do without her..she was there life...oh mama why did you have to go..i need you so.

Friday, September 03, 2004


MY THOUGHTS ARE WITH YOU Posted by Hello