Thursday, August 25, 2005

Why Now


Do We Have To Fight? Posted by Picasa

Why Do We Do This

Why do I do this?
Why do I try?
All you ever do
is make me cry.

I just want to love you
and you love be back.
Why now does it seem
it's me you attack.

I told you I loved you,
you said you loved me to.
So why now are we fighting?
with words like we do.

I care for you more
than you'll ever know.
Can't you feel this love
I'm trying to show?

I guess for some reason
I don't understand.
We'll never get along
because of what you demand.

I can't be there for you
every minute of your day.
I love you so much
but I have to stay away.

Why do we do this?
I have to know.
Why all this fighting?
That makes my temper show.

Copyrights:JoyceWilbanksIvy©08-25-05

Inside My Heart


You'll Always Be There Posted by Hello

Remembering You

You consume every minute of my night and my day,
you consume every minute even though your away.
You evoke the muse here within this mind,
with memories of you and a heart so kind.

I try to send you way back inside this brain,
but all your memories come flowing down just like the rain.
I know I'll never forget you, for inside my heart you'll stay,
all the things you did and said just won't go away.

In the back of my mind I still see you standing there,
knowing this was the last day of our love we would ever share.
It pains me now to think of that day,
and how I hurt you as you walked away.

I know you loved me from deep in your heart,
I could see that in your eyes right from the start.
I know that I loved you, but things happened so fast,
I'm sorry our love just didn't last.

I never wanted to hurt you with the things that I've done,
it's just my life came unraveled just as things for us had begun.
I know one day you'll come to grips with this,
and remember all the fond memories of our very first kiss.

Maybe by then you'll find forgiveness for me,
and see that our lives together just weren't meant to be.
When you do maybe we can talk this out,
and you'll know that I loved you without a doubt.

Copyrights:JoyceWilbanksIvy©08-25-05

Sometimes Life


Is Full Of Pain Posted by Picasa

Pain

I feel as though I've flown away
my minds not clear again today.
But I'm feeling better and I don't fucking care
in this crazy ass world I won't be scared.

I'll stand alone and I'll be strong
even if I do everything wrong.
The darkness stays and I can't see
what in the fuck is happening to me.

My mind is crazy everything is wrong
these nights are forever long.
Without you here to ease the pain
from my heart the tears fall like rain.

Maybe one day I'll come to grips with this
but for now I long for your loving kiss.
To have you hold me this night through
and wipe away the pain caused by you.

Copyrights:JoyceWilbanksIvy©08-25-05

Very Special Friends


Sometimes Just Fly Right Into Your Life Posted by Picasa

Love Of Friends

Today I think you my friends
here at Storm.
And how they reached out their hands
so loving and warm.

Just concerns that they've shown
just blows me away.
But please don't worry
I will be ok one day.

I just need a little time
to work this out.
I'll be back one day
without a doubt.

I do love you all
for the love that you've shone.
Reaching out your loving hands
and making me feel I do belong.

But sometimes in my life
I get a little crazy.
I do things I shouldn't
that make my mind hazy.

But today I have been
rethinking things.
Trying to get it together
from the love this site brings.

Just know that you've all
helped me so much.
Just from your caring
and your loving touch.

I will be ok
and I'll be back soon.
Inside my poems
you'll see my heart bloom.

Thank you all so very much
for the love you've shown to me.
If I were with you all now you would know
I'd give a big hug...and let my love show.

Copyrights:JoyceWilbanksIvy©08-25-05

I Need You


And I Love You Posted by Picasa

Longing For His Love

His arms once held me in such a loving way
now so cold to the touch they feel today.
He says that he love me more than anything
so why the hell is it heartache he brings.

I tried to talk to him about this
but he just blew it off with a kiss.
He says you know I don't talk
well with that I had to walk.

I can't take the silence and feeling something's wrong
even though I know with him is where my heart belongs.
I just these eggshells I've been walking on
feeling like I'm always doing something wrong.

Lately it's been a fucked up world we seem to live in
nothing like it was when way back then.
When he held me in your arms so tight
and loved me all through the night.

Why can't things be like they were back then
when you loved me and you were my best friend.
I miss those days more than you will ever know
the days when you had so much love to show.


Copyrights:JoyceWilbanksIvy©08-25-05

Wednesday, August 24, 2005

My Heart


Is Tied In Knots Posted by Picasa

So Damn Wrong

I need those arms that once held me close
where his love I felt deep down in my soul.
But I guess now that will never be
because he's gone so far away from me.

His heart it seems has gone away
even though his love he says will always stay.
I guess he meant when things were alright
but not when we have a damn fight.

I thought love was suppose to be
though good and bad.
But I guess in his eyes it's not
and that makes me so sad.

I still love him even though he's acting this way
I guess for now I'll pray for another day.
One that will leave me feeling strong
even thought this love went so damn wrong.

Copyrights:JoyceWilbanksIvy©08-25-05

Tuesday, August 23, 2005

No Way

I wish I could write the things I really feel
just show you that my love is real.
Your the one I loved most in life
and it's cutting through me like a knife.

I just wish you could see I love you so much
but you no longer hold me with your loving touch.
My head stays screwed up most of the day
you say you love me but then you stay away.

I know this time I've lost you and it cuts me to the bone,
why in the hell don't you pick up that phone.
It's always me that has to make the first call
but this time I can't even if I fall.

I've fell back into this depression you see,
I stay messed up but what seems to help me.
Maybe I'll get over this pain within me today,
because this time I'm not calling you...no damn way.

Copyrights:JoyceWilbanksIvy©08-23-05

But again I did...as usual...LOL

Why Can't


Life Be Simple Posted by Picasa

Sometimes Life


Just Sucks Posted by Picasa

Frustrated

Frustrated as hell
and I must be blind.
Screwed up in life
from your love I did find.
I know that you love me
but I can no longer take this shit.
you make my mind crazy
and make me throw a fit.
I love you more can you will ever know
but for now I say fuck you.
Because the frustration is getting me
and I know I'm fixing to blow.

Copyrights:JoyceWilbanksIvy©08-23-05

In My Life You Are


The Hands Of Time Posted by Picasa

Tomorrow

I think about tomorrow and what it means to me
without you in my life there's not much that I do see.
Loneliness and heartache is all that comes to mind
for I though when I found you... you were meant for me to find.
Now I really wonder why you came to me.
Was it just to fill a void that destroyed my life you see.
You help me through the pain and sorrow of the loss of Mom that day.
Now it's been almost a year and your not here to help this pain go away.
September third she 'll be gone one year and it seems like yesterday.
Maybe this time I can handle this pain that seems to always stay.
But when I think about tomorrow and how life without you will be.
I wonder what will happen to your memories I know will stay with me.

Copyrights:JoyceWilbanksIvy©08-23-05

Monday, August 22, 2005

My Soul


Feels So Lost Posted by Picasa

Lost Soul

My mind is crazy
I've lost control....
again I hide
like a lost soul....
Tormented as hell
from a fuck up life...
When doe it end
I guess I'll soon know...
You've driven me over the deep end
where I never again wanted to go....
But I guess it my weakness
that comes from this lost soul....

Copyrights:JoyceWilbanksIvy©08-22-05

You Make Me


Feel So Damn Weak Posted by Picasa

Again I'm Weak

Tormented inside the depths so deep
I'm so damn tired of you making me weep.
The tears that now stain my cheek
have made me again so fucking weak.

I've turned to drugs knowing it wrong
but inside they make me feel so strong.
Xanaz makes me forget about you
something I know I need to do.

I've loved you more than I can ever say,
but somehow in your mind you don't see it that way.
I hate this fucked up world we've been in,
so again I turn to my only friend.

Copyrights:JoyceWilbanksIvy©08-22-05

Sunday, August 21, 2005

Sometimes You


Drive Me Crazy Posted by Picasa

Tormented Soul

I search the storms inside my head,
sometimes just wishing I were dead.
Not wanting to live another day,
gone forever so far away.

Then I can't think and I can't see,
all these things that bother me.
I can't watch and I can't feel,
these things inside you did steel.

The darkness here I seek to find,
away from this world I will be blind.
Not caring what you say or think,
away from you in one quick blink.

No more torment within my soul,
buried deep within this hole.
Covered forever no more to see,
all this torment inside of me.

Copyrights:JoyceWilbanksIvy©08-16-2005

Saturday, August 20, 2005

The Silence Is Deafening


Within My Ears
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Silence

Again I sit and write in the dark of the night.
My mind spinning in such fright.

Again you torment my soul and my mind.
Deep down in my heart it's sorrow I find.

The silence is deafening here in my head.
To you I might as well be dead.

Never can we fight in constructive ways.
Just silence that deafens my ears these days.

I tell you I love you but that's not enough.
The way that you act is getting to rough.

Just yell and scream instead of staring at me.
At least it's communication you see.

The silence is killing me more than you know.
My brain is spinning and I'm about to blow.

Copyrights:JoyceWilbanksIvy©08-20-05

Tuesday, August 09, 2005


To Say I Love You Posted by Picasa

Pride

Sometimes I can't say the things I want to say.
But know that I love you in every single way.
I let my pride get in the way.
Of all the things I want to say.

Maybe one day you will see.
I want it to be just you and me.
Forever to walk through this life.
One day to be your loving wife.

Just take my hand and show me how.
I'll love you forever just like I love you now.
I'll take my pride and throw it away.
If that's what it takes for you love to stay.

You know I'm stubborn and so are you.
So take your pride and throw it too.
We love each other you know it's true.
So lets ditch the pride for me and you.

Copyrights:JoyceWilbanksIvy© 08-04-05

I Hold Tight


To The Keeper Of My Dreams
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Keeper Of My Dreams

Along the paths of life
I find you waiting there.
Always in my world
wanting me to share.

Holding on to my dreams
keeping them safe from harm.
Holding me so tightly
there within your arms.

Keeper of my dreams
hold me again tonight.
Fill my world with wonder
and keep my dreams in sight.

Take my heart and fill it
with the love I know is there.
Hold on to my dreams forever
so one day we may share.

Keeper of my dreams
forever hold me tight.
I'll hold in my arms
each and every night.

Copyrights:JoyceWilbanksIvy© 08-01-05

Friday, August 05, 2005

My Heart Ached


As I Melted Away In My Own Despair Posted by Hello

MELTING IN DESPAIR

When I needed you, you weren't there.
Within these walls, I'd sit and stare.
When I'd hear your voice,you weren't really there.
I'd just melt away in my despair.
I wanted to love you,but you didn't care.
I wanted to cherish you, but I didn't dare.
I wanted to hold you,with a love to share,
I needed to see you,but you just weren't there.
As I melted away in my despair.
I longed to see the look within your eyes,
oh, but with you came the perfect disguise.
You'd tell me not to cry,
but damn I hate it more with each goodbye.
I feel all the love you once held was just a lie,
Now my soul shall slowly die.

Copyrights:JoyceWilbanksIvy©08-25-05

Just another crazy from a mixed up mind...warped I do believe....LOL