Your Love

Is What Sees Me Through 

Your Words

My soul has heard your lovely words
upon my heart they fell.
With gentleness and tenderness
your words they flow and make my heart swell.
Inside your words is loves embrace
even when miles apart.
You've dried away my every tear
these words that struck my heart.
I feel your love at every turn
it's what I now cling to.
As I battle these storms that rage within,
your love is what sees me through.

Copyrights:JoyceWilbanksIvy©11-29-05

Will I Ever Win

These Battles That Rage Within 

These Battles That Rage Within

I wish my heart wasn't so heavy
these things upon my mind.
Stress, stress, stress is this a test
God has set before me one more time?
How do I find hope and happiness
when at times my life seems to be doomed?
I look at the things God has given
and know I am truly blessed.
But somewhere amist it all
the dangers lurk within my mind.
Stress, stress, stress, is this just another test
God has set before me one more time?
Will I win or will I lose this battle that rages within?
Will I draw the right card from the deck?
Will my aces be flying high or will the jokers finally win?
I guess I'll have to take my chance and hope for luck to prevail.
I just hope I played the right cards and God doesn't send me to hell.
Stress, stress, stress is this another test
God has set before me one more time?
If it is I hope too once again win,
and beat the battles that rage within.

Copyrights:JoyceWilbanksIvy©11-29-05

Am I Now Dead

 

Tell Me Now

The rain beats down upon my head
I'm wondering if I'm really dead.
I'm standing here out in the rain
tell me now am I insane?

I don't know but I sure am cold
my bones are aching feeling so old.
Did I do it ? Did I just die?
Tell me now why do I fly?

Have I lost it? I have no clue.
Tell me now what do I do?
My mind is spinning out of control
I believe I've finally lost my only hold.

I know I did, I just died
no longer in this world do I hide.
I am gone why did I die,
now that I'm gone please don't cry.

I am gone to a world I don't know much about
but I'm jumping up and down as I now shout.
I am free, free as a dove,
I now fly the heavens, the heavens above.

Tell me now why have I died?
Am I free from these tears that I've always cried?
Oh tell me now why is my heart at ease?
Have I finally found it? Have I found my peace?

Copyrights:JoyceWilbanksIvy©11-27-05

He Played His Parade Upon My Heart

But This Time I Won 

Bruised By The Silence

Bruised by the silence
that shatteres my soul.
Fate has once tempted
as the devil again takes his toll.
Ignorance and short tempered,
the prices too be paid.
As once again the devil
plays upon my heart his evil parade.
Not again bruised by the silence
that shatteres my soul.
This time I have not lost
for my temper I controlled.

Copyrights:JoyceWilbanksIvy©11-23-05

Just Feel The Freedom

Just Let Go 

Just Let Go

Tonight galaxies of timeless stars illuminates the darkened sky.
The moon shines a brilliant glow upon your smiling face.
What a beautiful night for loves embrace.
As you stand behind me with your arms wrapped tightly around my waist
the winds whisper softly in the cool night air.
The whispers of love as you kiss me softly upon my neck.
Chased by the darkness inside a heart that wishes to just let go.
For a moment one short moment my heart was free,
free to love and to be loved. Then once again beaten by a bitter past as the winds try to whisper to my heart. Let go, let go once again let go and free yourself. The winds whisper of freedom and love, just let go, let yourself go.

Copyrights:JoyceWilbanksIvy©11-23-05

You Hold My Heart

Within Your Hands 

My Heart Is Yours

You held my hand that special day
my heart with you just ran away.
No one will ever know the touch
the love from you I feel so much.
I'll live my life with you till death
you take away my every breath.
You smile and make my heart melt
for a love like this I've never felt.
No other man can do to me
the things you do no one can see. lol
My heart is yours to have and hold
no longer is it frozen cold.
I'll linger here and wait for you
to come and do those things you do. lol

Copyrights:JoyceWilbanksIvy©11-22-05

My Heart Burns

Just For You 

It Will Not Become An Empty Past

This love I hold within my hand
I know I'll never understand.
I'll never take it lightly though
it's hard to find the love like you show.
You fill my heart with such glee
your love it shines right threw me.
Each time you touch and hold my hand
it make my heart feel so grand.
My soul I've shared with you so long
with you is where it does belong.
Each day that passes and we make it through
the stronger my love becomes for you.
I know we'll make this love last
it will not become an empty past.

Copyrights:JoyceWilbanksIvy©11-22-05

Me And You

To The Death 

To My Death

I sit and think of you today
my life you touched in such a way.
I never knew what real love meant
until this year with you I've spent.
You touched my heart with so much love
our lives they seem to fit like a glove.
I know as long as I shall live
to you my love I will give.
I hope one day for you too see
all this love inside of me.
I know I'll never turn away
from this love there is no way.
As long as I still hold breath
it's you I'll love to my death.

Copyrights:JoyceWilbanksIvy©11-22-05

When Your Hands Touch Mine

Your Love Makes Me Blind 

Love Makes You Blind

I touch your hands
and you touch mine.
Is it love
that we now find.
I know it's not
just a roll under the cover
cause here in my mind
I find you now hover.
You don't leave my mind
once you are gone.
I feel deep down
my heart is where you belong.
I feel each time
your hand touches mine.
There's nothing else in this would
cause your love makes me blind.

Copyrights:JoyceWilbanksIvy©11-21-05

One Day You Will Know

And Feel All My Love 

Reflecting

Remembering...

Thinking of the first time
I saw your face.
Then and there my heart
began to race.
Why back then I didn't realize
what it was was.
But it was years down the road
a bond called love.

Thinking...

Of the first time I saw you
after the many years.
I saw a man there
that erased all my fears.
I had just lost my mother
and losing a grandmother too.
My heart was so shattered
but you were there for me
and knew what to do.
To loss them together
in 27 short days.
You eased my pains
in so many ways.

Reflecting...

On it today and
on all of the pain
If you hadn't been there
I would most definitely
now be insane.
I thank you so much
for all that you've done.
But most of all I thank you
for loving me hun.

Wishing...

I could love you completely
and tear down these walls.
Cause each time I think of you
it's my name your voice calls.
Maybe one day
I can just let go.
And deep down inside you
it's my love you will know.

Reflecting...

On life
and all that I know.
There is a great love
for me that you show.
You deserve more
than I can ever give.
But I will try hard to make you happy
with each day that we live.

Copyrights:JoyceWilbanksIvy©11-21-05

The Making UP

Is So Much Fun....

We Do It With Class

Your hands now on me
after so long.
Please don't let
this love go wrong.
If I lose you now
I don't know
just what I would do.
I know I can be
a big pain in the ass.
But at least I do it
with so much class.
I know that you love me
there is no doubt.
Even when we fight
and you start to shout.
At least when we make up
we do it too with class.
Just look how you grab me
right here on my ass.
We do fun with making up
from all these fights.
I beginning to think you like it
so we can make things all right.
But at least when we do it
we do it with class.
And then we make love
and make it last, last, last.

Copyrights:JoyceWilbanksIvy©11-21-05

I think my meds are getting to me...lmaooooooooooooooo

The Mind Is

A Very Strange Thing 

My Mind Is Crashing

I stay in my darkness
and try not to feel.
Maybe these things
in my head aren't real.

None the less
they drive me insane.
I wish I could rip my hair out
and get rid of this brain.

I know I'd feel better
if that's what I could do.
Maybe then my mind
would fell so damn blue.

Crying doesn't help
I know that by now.
I just wish I could fell better
and feel normal somehow.

So for now I'm staying here in my darkness
and hope the gloom passes.
Before this crazy mind of mind
does fips and soon crashes.

Copyrights:JoyceWilbanksIvy©11-20-05

Sometime The Mind

Just Loves To Play 

The Insane Mind

These things that run ramped
up here in my head.
Sometime make feel
as though I were dead.

Why does my mind
feel so damaged at times.
I guess I am paying
for all of my crimes.

I don't really know why
but I wish it would stop.
Before my body gives in
and I just drop.

I feel like a crazy nut
that should be locked away tight.
Come with the straight jackets
and hide me somewhere out of sight.

Maybe one day soon
it will come to me.
And I'll know why
these things have to be.

Copyrights:JoyceWilbanksIvy©11-20-05

Insanity

Sometimes Is Just To Much 

To Much

My heart is racing
my mind a blur.
All these mixed up feeling
and why I'm not sure.

I feel that I'm lost
never to be found.
Why all these feeling
in my mind they surround.

I feel that I've lost it
why I'm not sure.
But I feel inside
for me there is no cure.

I feel that I'm smothering
lying here on this bed.
Even in my safe darkness
my blood runs red.

I just want these felling
to just disappear.
The silence even though deafening
is all I want to here.

Shaking and trembling
these feeling are rough.
But tonight I tell you
I have had to much.

Copyrights:JoyceWilbanksIvy©11-20-05

Holidays Will Never Be The Same

Without You Mom 

Holidays

The holidays again are near
but again moms not here.
Trying hard to face the fact
mom will never be coming back.

We'll again have to face these holidays alone
for mom will never be coming home.
It fills my heart with sadness still
even though I know it was Gods will.

I'll try real hard this time for you
to keep everyone from being blue.
But there is sill an emptiness there
from the love from you we once shared.

It doesn't seem right when everyone enters that door,
your not there and my heart sinks to the floor.
But I promise mom this time I will try
to make it through these holidays and not sit here and cry.

I Love You Mom

Copyrights:JoyceWilbanksIvy©11-20-05

My Heart

Beats For You 

I Will Always Love You

As I lay here next to you
all my problems and fears
just seem to fade away.
I know deep down we can make it
we can overcome all this world has
thrown our way.
I look deep into your eyes
as the love comes flowing through.
And I know in the years to come
we will have many more night
to just lay here and talk and feel the love
I know we have been blessed with.
As I lay here with my head resting on your chest
I know deep down your heart beats for me
just as mine too beats for you.

I will always Love you!

Copyrights:JoyceWilbanksIvy©11-20-05

Eyes That Shine

And A Smile That Never Stops

Carmen

My sweet little Carmen
you are so beautiful to me.
My little flower
budding up from the ground.

Hair of golden blond
so beautiful too see.
Eyes that sparkle
as blue as the sea.

Little mouth running all the time
wanting gangan to know all you've done.
What you don't know
gangan loves you more than she can say.

The years are passing so fast now you see,
seems like yesterday my first grandchild was born,
And now I turn around and you turned three,
and I am the happiest grandmother there could ever be.

With each little smile you send to me,
knocks me flat on my knees.
You have the brightest smile I've ever seen
my heart you've stolen just knowing you love me.

Like your mother who was my first born,
you are my first grandchild I so adore.
No matter how many more I have and love just as I do you,
there's a special place in my heart and I'll forever love you true.

Copyrights:JoyceWilbanksIvy©03-31-04

One I wrote for my baby when she turned 3...just found it today...she is now 4 and still as beautiful as can be.......

You Still Place Butterflies

Deep Within My Stomach When I Think Of You

Broken Heart/Shattered Dreams

I'd like to tell you
What is in my heart
I have loved you so
I knew it from the start.
Tonight I'll dream of you
And wish you were here with me
I'll wait for you forever
However long that may be.
You can have my broken heart
And my shattered dreams
This is all I have left
Or that’s the way it seems.
If wishes could be given to a broken heart
And I was given two
I'd wish that you loved me the way you once did
The other I'd give to you.
You will always have my heart
I hope you know it too
I will never love another
No matter how this love ends.

Copyrights:JoyceWilbanksIvy©11-19-05

The Beast Of Fires

Trapped Within 

Beast Of Fire

I am consumed with wanting,
But for what I'm uncertain.
Maybe it's a craving for life,
A need to feel alive.
A fire burns within me,
Scratching, screaming,
Trying to claw its way out,
My blood poisoned with its Passion.
It's restless,
Confined in my cage,
With just enough space to pace,
Planning escape.
I know that it will come,
That day it will run free,
But not until my mind is free.
Only a name
Will bring peace and cease its torturing pleas.
Roars echoing in the dark void of mind,
Beckoning me come find,
to look inside,
To search for meaning in my existence,
Demanding I define my destiny.
It's a living fire within me,
One I cannot extinguish,
And I am being incinerated
By its fierce flames.
The only relief from its wrath,
Is found in your arms.
In your presence,
it eases,
The longing subsides.
I grow anxious with thought of losing you,
Knowing,
like an old familiar friend,
it will return,
To eat me alive with its ravenous hunger,
Until I touch you once again.
With you,
I want to do those things
Imagined,
yet not yet done,
To turn this animal loose on you,
No restraint.
Dare you let me close enough,
To burn you with its scorching desire;
Dare you be my brave knight
And subdue this beast of fire?


Copyrights:JoyceWilbanksIvy©11-16-05

I Know Somewhere In Time

This Love Will Never End 

Somewhere In Time

Somewhere in time
we fell in love.
Our hearts began to beat as one,
our souls free to share life.

Somehow with your love
nothing else seems to matter.
All the walls from around my heart have disappeared,
now after so many years, I feel free and safe with you.

With each passing day
great memories are being placed within my mind.
Of a love and a trip alone, just you and me,
of days and months pass I feel the love within your heart.

Somewhere in time
our love stood still .
As we stood upon the waters edge,
a love within our hearts we shared,we will forever feel.

Somewhere in time
we shared our hearts, souls and our minds.
And with this bond we share,
inside a true love that forever binds.

Somewhere in time
our weekend away with memories filled.
To last a lifetime inside our minds,
as all this love within us was sealed.

Somewhere in time
we'll remember these memories again.
Somewhere in time
I still hold Hope that our love will never end.

Copyrights:JoyceWilbanksIvy©11-19--05

It was a beautiful weekend...time to talk and be alone...the cabin was beautiful and the lake was wonderful....right behind the cabin...we had a wonderful time.....I still hold to my hope that we will overcome our problems and this love will never end....

Sometimes

Even Angels Fall 

Forbidden Love

Guess I was just reflecting back on a forbidden Love....from long ago


All these emotions running high as the day brings in the bright sun light.
Laying here thinking of you and all the love we once shared.
Gone forever from our lives, but still in our hearts.
You will be inside my mind as the morning brings another day,
as the evening brings in the dark gloom of the night.
You are in my dreams as lay my head upon my pillow
and fall into a restless sleep, with visions of your face inside my head.
Your love, your touch, your heart, your words I will carry with me,
as long as my heart beats inside my chest you will be there.
Now as a wonderful friend who's love can carry us through these trying times.For it was a forbidden love that we once shared in our hearts.
My soul I shared with you, no one else will ever see.
I will forever remember the essence of our first kiss,
and your loving embrace. Life can change within a single moment.
Just as it did for us in that tragic month of September.
When our love seem to deminish from a lack of sharing the tragic events in my life. Call it selfish on my part. But I feel you should have done what you could to be there for me. And you made no attempt to share in my grief. In my life I moved on, but I will always carry you in my heart.
I do know there were things in your life that made it difficult for you to be here and I guess that's what I try to look at now. I know deep down you cared and things stoped you from being here, but it still doesn't help how I feel now. If my eyes had been open I would have know it was a forbidden love from the start, but a love I will always remember. I wish you happiness in your life and I am sorry that happiness wasn't with me. But life changes in an instant and when you find love again just remember to cherish it as if it is your last. My heart will always be with you as a true friend. But sometimes love just doesn't work out like you want. It takes two and you must be there for each others needs no matter what...even in a forbidden Love.

Copyrights:JoyceWilbanksIvy©11-19-05

This poem goes along with this write about my Forbidden Love....

Fallen Angel

I found an angel
and that angel is you...
God loves you
no matter what you do...
He loves me
and I've fallen too...
but I know God loves us
and you should too...
He forgives us
I know he does...
he wouldn't have given us
each other to love...
if you hadn't fallen
and me fallen too...
I wouldn't have have fallen
so deeply in love with you...

Copyrights:JoyceWilbanksIvy©07-12-04

Without You I Am Nothing

 

You Are Everything To Me

You are everything
Ocean deep and heaven high
The wonder of perfection
Within my mind
You are everything
The only song within my heart
The melody that dances with each days start
You are everything
You are the thunder
that rolls across my skies
You are the lightning
that flashes before my eyes
You are my everything
My earth, my sky, my moon,my sun
The rain drops that fall upon my face
on a warm summers day
Every star way up above
You are ever breath that I breath
you are my life,
You are the blood flowing through my veins
My past, my present, my future
You are everything to me
You are a raging storms within my soul
without you I am out of control
You are the beautiful snowflakes
on a beautiful winters day
You are the calmness
that flows within my heart
You are everything
You are the beauty within
every sunrise and sunset
The sun could never rise
without you in my life
You are the gates that open wide
always inviting me in
You are the tallest tree
dancing in the wind
You are everything
You are in my dreams each night
You are wishes answered
You are prayers granted
You are fantasies lived
You Are My Love,
You are my everything
Without you
I am Nothing

Copyrights:JoyceWilbanksIvy©11-19-05

I Still See The Passion

Within You Deep Blue Eyes 

Passion Within Your Eyes

My heart had been so cold ,
for so very long.
But when I looked, inside your eyes,
I saw where I went wrong.
I longed for a happiness,
I really knew was there.
But it was something in life,
I just couldn't share.
You erupted in me a need,
I thought was dead and gone.
But when I looked, inside your heart,
I ached for the love you had shown.
There is a fire that burns within us,
that only we can fill.
For as I lay my head upon your chest,
I know this love is real.
I breathe in the scent of you,
it was so intoxicating.
My heart pounds with every breath,
as I feel your wonderful touch.
I love the way your hands,
softly caress my body.
Your kisses so passionate,
My heart you've surely won.
In your eyes I see so many things,
I want all, that this love brings.
I feel as though our souls,
have been united forever as one.
And one look into your eyes,
I knew I was in Heaven.
For I saw the the passion,
burning in your eyes.
I still see that passion today
and I still feel that love in so many ways.
With all the problems we seem to have
there is still hope.
If you never lose that passion
I still see burning in your eyes.

Copyrights:JoyceWilbanksIvy©11-18-05

Within Our Words

To Us There Is A Meaning 

A Wealth Of Words

A wealth of words upon my page
Although it may not seem that way
Within each word they come from a heart
To me that's worth more than anything
Words are just words unless they are felt
Sometimes you may not know the whole story
But if you read between the lines
There you will find a heart, and a soul
Sometime it may be the joys of love
Or the pains of loss
Or at times it may just be our mindless thoughts
But none the less they too me
Are a wealth of words upon our pages
Because they are from our minds and our hearts and our souls
So remember when you read something we've written
Even if you don't grasp the full understanding
It is a wealth of words upon each page.

Copyrights:JoyceWilbanksIvy©11-18-05

My Dreams Have Danced Away