SO MUCH SADNESS

TODAY MAMA IS REALLY A HAZE TO ME. WE BURIED YOU TODAY..THE HARDEST THING I HAVE EVER HAD TO FACE ALONE. I KNOW MAMA YOU ALWAYS SAID I WAS YOUR STRONGEST CHILD, BUT AGAIN I FAILED YOU MAMA. I KNOW YOU WOULD HAVE WANTED ME TO HOLD UP FOR DADDY AND THE OTHER KIDS, BUT MAMA I COULDN'T... I FELL APART AND I AM SO SORRY...PLEASE FORGIVE ME..IT WAS ONLY THAT I LOVED YOU SO MUCH AND I NEVER GOT A CHANCE TO TELL YOU THAT...OH MAMA I MISS YOU SO MUCH RIGHT NOW...I DON'T KNOW HOW TO GO ON..I DON'T KNOW HOW TO HELP JORDAN AND TAYLOR THROUGH THIS...I CAN'T EVEN HELP MYSELF THROUGH IT...I FEEL SO ALONE RIGHT NOW...WITH ALL MY HEART I LOVE YOU MAMA AND I AM SO SORRY I FAILED YOU AGAIN...