MISSING YOU

Mom i woke up this morning thinking of you and how you will never meet Tony..i told you all about him and how happy you were for me... don't worry about me mom i will be ok...it's just that we all miss you so much...Jenny and Julie are having a harder time now where i was at first. Poor little Teddy is having it hard also..Tony tring to hide his feelings but we all know deep inside he is hurting too...My (your) girls are dealing pretty good..they break at times...but mama when i sat at your graveside i made you a promise to try to keep things as normal as i could for them and i will... Daddy wants them to still stay ay your home and Julie, Jenny, and Mandy have told me they will help with them...So don't worry mama i will try my best not to let Ben keep them while i work...i know you don't want that and neither do i.. They will be ok mama...Daddy is missing you so much...he was here yesterday..all he can do is talk about you... seems like thats all we do these days. I laughed at him..he said Jenny wouldn't let him do anything..not even let him put on his own socks..lol...i laughted and told him to tell her you didn't even put his socks on him...lol... he said every time he gets up to get a cup of coffee she would grab the cup out of his hand...mama she's spoiling him to much...Mama i miss you so much...we all do...Mom there is one thing dad said that has helpped his so much..he said the last thing he remembers you saying was I LOVE YOU....We were so lucky mom to have you and dad together all these years...and we all thank you both for that.Your moms not far behind you i can see it in her everyday when i go to the cemetary to sit by your grave..i stop and talk to her...i told her you would be standing there waiting on her...She couldn't come to your funeral but janiece showed her your pictures and i took her a plant..she was so happy to get it...I will visit you often mom and you will always be in my heart...I love you...