Inside My Mind

The Demons Lurk

Demons

Eyes of fire
My blood runs cold
Razor sharp teeth
My skin "it's hold"
Fear in depts
A story told
The demons run ramped
Within my soul
Voices so clear
I run in fear
Inside my soul
The demons near
My heart is racing
My minds not clear
Close out these voices
I always hear
Let me run
Please let me hide
These demons control me
Deep inside

Copyrights:JoyceWilbanksIvy©05-29-06

Our Flag

Still Flies 

Winds Of Time

The winds of time tell their tell
of men who died in a living hell.
In it blows fates windy breeze
of men who knelt on bended knees
The mortors flew in through the night
as men they watched the skies now bright.
The morning came the blood was shed
upon the ground men now lay dead.
Their cries were heard throughout the night
bodies mangled a gruesome sight.
Bayonets shine a bloody trail
their eyes now show a living hell.
But through it all our flag still flies
men stand proud as each one cries.
The winds of time that fateful day
Americans stand proud so far away.

Copyrights:JoyceWilbanksIvy©05-26-06

I'm Still

Daddy's Little Girl 

"Daddy's Little Girl"

I was sitting in your lap last night
Well it seemed like yesterday
The years have past so very fast
Your body now withered and frail
But I still remember the days
When I was daddy's little girl
Hand in hand we'd walk
A smile upon my face
Everywhere you went
Your little girl would have to go
To the lake with our poles
We went every chance we got
And Saturday night was set aside
Just for wrestling at the rink
Everything you did
Was for daddy's little girl
No longer can I sit in your lap
But I still remember those days I did
Your body now withered and frail
But your heart is still the same
And when I look into your eyes
I still see "I'm daddy's little girl"
I know one day you'll be gone
And those days I'll surely miss
I'll look upon them
And remember a childhood of love
I'll always think about those days
When I was "daddy's little girl"

Copyrights:JoyceWilbanksIvy©2006

I Love You Too

Never Question Love 

 

 

Proven Love

You picked a small flower
And handed it to me
You said I love you
Now let it be
You picked up your phone
While I was standing there
You dialed my number
And said my love with you I'll share
You picked up the paper
And scribbled a note
To me you handed it
And I read what you wrote
You said that you loved me
that's all that you know
You didn't know why
I felt your love didn't show
You reached over and hugged me
close to your heart
You said your love for me
was as it was from the start
You told me to close my eyes
So I couldn't see
From your back you pulled a bouque
And said it was for me
I sat on the bench
I began to cry
I had questioned your love
And I didn't know why
You asked me if I wanted you
Too paint a picture for me
You said that the picture
would be of how you
Wanted our love to be
When I look to see
What you had done
This time there was no way
From your love I could run
For I saw a big red heart painted there
You said it was for
All your love you wanted to share
I knew right then
That your love was true
I reached over and kissed you
That's all I could do
You said have I proven
My love for you is sound
I said yes
And too your love I am bound
As I sat there with you
on the swing that night
I held on to you
Ever so tight
Never again will I question
Your love for me
From this day on
I will just let things be

Copyrights:JoyceWilbanksIvy©05-25-06

Mother

Our Angle Up High 

I Need You "Mother"

I've fallen apart
I feel I have died.
The tears stream down
so many I've cried.
You've been gone
so long now.
Can I take this?
I just don't know how.
You are my mother
and I miss you so much.
Right now I need
your loving touch.
I need you here with me
to wipe away my tears.
I need you too help me
release all my fears.
Life has been so hard
since you've been gone.
You are my mother
and I just want you home.
I miss my late night calls
when I would come in.
You telling me about the kids
and where they had been.
You always laughing
at what Tayor had done.
From all the phone calls
I could tell you'd had so much fun.
But most of all I miss
the sound of your voice.
And how you laughted at them so hard
it had made you horse.
I know how much you loved them
how much you had cared.
They too miss
all the love that you shared.
Why can't I just turn back time
to when you were here.
I need you mother
I need you near.

Copyrights:JoyceWilbanksIvy©05-24-06

Things Are Never Just Black Or White

Especially With Love 

A Pondering Mind

I seem to ponder more these days
These things inside my mind
Won't go away
You,me and what life may bring
Inside my head this crazy ring
I know you love me
I know that's true
But I really don't
Know what to do
Do I run away and hide?
Do I face these things
I hold inside?
These fears seem to trap me here
I always run away in fear
Deep down I know
That I will loose
If your love
I do not choose
So as I ponder my mind within
I hope one day
Our love will win

Copyrights:JoyceWilbanksIvy©05-22-06

How Do I Bring Back

What Had Once Been....The Closeness With My Bestfriend 

My Best Friend

We're in the same house
But each day we pass by
Not touching each other
All I ever do is cry
You kiss me good night
But your lips seem so strange
I love you baby
Even that isn't the same
You ask me to come closer
So in your arms I can lay
But your hold too
Seems to have changed
How can I bring back
What once had been
The closeness I miss
From my bestfriend

Copyrights:JoyceWilbanksIvy©05-18-06

My Love For You

Will Never Fade Away 

When

irI watched you walk past the window today
My mind frozen in a time not far away
A time when our lips met for their first kiss
Our hearts filled with such bliss
When we were so in love
Our heads floating in the clouds above
A time when your touch excited me
Your love in my life was all I could see
A time when I looked deep inside your eyes
And all my questions answered with just your sigh's
A time when I felt I meant something to you
When I knew your love was true
A time when I felt special wrapped tightly in your arms
as you laid on all of your charms
I remember those times like it was yesterday
Let's get them back before they fade away
I still love you and you know that it's true
And I know deep down you still love me too

Copyrights:JoyceWilbanksIvy©5-18-06

Mom Visits Me

In My Butterflies 

Mom In My Butterfly

This is a crazy little poem I just wrote for mom...because she always liked my crazy side...I can just see her in heaven laughin at me right now...I don't really know where this one came from..except my mom..like me loved butterflies...and right after and ever since she died it is like butterfly city in our yards....One time i went out my door and there were tons of butterflies flyin around...And mom told me many times if it was possible for her to come back after she died she would come to us in some way to let us know she was OK...So everytime I she these butterflies I feel Mom is near....So here's to you MOM..Love ya and Miss ya...........

Mom In My Butterflies

I saw a yellow butterfly
flying through the air.
I wondered if it was mom
or if I really cared.
She left us here alone
she flew to the skies.
Hell I don't blame her
she's lucky that she died.
No longer does she worry
nor is she in pain.
Going to heaven
she had a lot to gain.
Now she's with loved ones
floating on her white cloud.
She was my mother
and of her I was so proud.
I wish she was here
but that I cannot change.
I guess my yellow butterfly
was her flying out of range.
I know she visits me
because she told me so.
I see her in my butterfly
it's her I know.
She comes to me in colors
one a brilliant red.
I knew it was her
when she landed on my head.
When I saw the green one
I knew she come so say,
I know that I left you
but I'm never far away.
Look to the skies
and see your butterflies
I am you mom,
and I hear you every cries.
But when I saw the yellow one
I just knew.
It had to be mom,
that was her first clue.
So fly with me mom
stay as close as you can.
Watch out mom!
Watch out for that fan.
You've left me once
don't do it again.
Stay with me butterfly
your my mom I'll pretend.

Copyrights:JoyceWilbanksIvy©05-16-06

These Nights Are Long

When Love Is Lost 

Time Will Tell

I toss and I turn
the whole night through.
I often wonder
if your love was true.
I close my eyes
but I just can't sleep.
Thinking of you
just makes me weep.
My minds so tired
it just won't shut down.
All of these tears
I feel I will drown.
My soul is so weary
I feel I will drop.
Why don't you love me
Why did you stop.
These questions come to me
every single night.
How this love ended
it just isn't right.
These eyes now
bloodshot as hell.
If you still love me
I guess time will tell.

Copyrights:JoyceWilbanksIvy©05-16-06

Through My Window

Only I Can See 

My Window

Through my window
Only I can see
A world of anguish
Trapped here inside me
He's not here
I'm all alone
Sometimes I wonder
Just what went wrong
My thoughts so deep
I just wonder why
In our world of Love
He made me cry
But through my window
One time I did see
A man who really
Loved only me
But somewhere
Along the way
He lost my heart and soul
Now inside my world
I've grown so very cold
But one day I hope
Through my window
I'll see
Him truly looking
Back at me
With the Loving
Heart
That I had once
Known
For inside my world
My mind he had blown
He showed me a Love
Like I had never felt
With his arm around me
My heart would simply melt
His kiss on my lips
I'll never forget
Inside my stomach
The butterflies turned flips
But until that day
Through my window
I'll see
All this bitter anguish
Trapped
Here inside me

Copyrights:JoyceWilbanksIvy©05-16-06

Without You

I Am Lost 

Lost

I feel so lost sometimes
Not knowing what to do
You once held me so very close
My fears you wiped away
Now that you're no longer here
My minds at peace no more
I tremble when I think of you
You were my only world
As I now go on with life
I wonder what will come
Will my heart give up now
Or will I venture on
Sometimes I feel so very lost
My soul a misty grey
A shadow cast upon my heart
My life is truly gone
You left me here all alone
My world now incomplete
I hope one day to feel your love
As it was so long ago
Without you here I am so lost
My mind no longer clear
Come hold me now within your arms
And make my world safe once more

Copyrights:JoyceWilbanksIvy©05-11-06

I Wish Your Memories

Would Fade Away 

You Are In Everything

When I saw you yesterday
I wished your memory would fade away
But everytime I look around
Inside my mind it's you that's found
In the stars up in the sky
I see that sparkle in your eye
In the sun that shines so bright
I see your smile that's out of sight
In the moon as it glows
I hear the love your heart echo's
In the rocks upon the ground
It's your hands that made my heart pound
I see you in the man next door
I just wish our love was like before
I hope these memories fade real fast
So I don't feel these pains from the past
And when I see you walking by
I hope this time I can say hi

Copyrights:JoyceWilbanksIvy©05-10-06

You Make Me Crazy

All The Time 

Trapped

I feel so trapped here in my mind
Your insanity puzzles all the time
You try to rule my every move
Too you my love I must always prove
Tired of your shit I have become
You keep me right under your thumb
It seems I can't go anywhere
I look behind me and you are there
I feel so trapped here in my mind
With you near I can't unwind
Your eyes they watch my every move
Everything I do you disapprove
My love now trapped my heart grows cold
All your shit is getting old
You make me crazy inside my head
Sometimes I wish that I were dead

Copyrights:JoyceWilbanksIvy©05-10-06

This Is The Last Time You Will See Me

Walk Away 

Watch Me Walk Out The Door

I picture you as I walk away
Your eyes a stone cold grey
You watch me walk out the door
Again it's me you ignore
But this time things won't be the same
I won't be back or hang my head in shame
I know I've done nothing wrong
Except stay with you way to long
I have to go before it's to late
My sanity is now at stake
Now I have something new for you in store
Just sit there and watch me walk out the door
Because it's the last time you'll see me do this
It's my every loving ass you can kiss

Copyrights:JoyceWilbanksIvy©05-08-06

I'll Hold You In My Mind

Until The Next Sunrise 

Love And The Sunrise

The moon shines bright in the skies up high
The stars follow with a twinkling glow
The darkness holds a peaceful sound
Here upon my soul
I reach up high to grab the stars
So far above the ground
To hold them here within my dreams
As you fill my world this night
The man inside the moons full glow
Holds my heart inside
Traps me there until the dawn
As true love flows up that mountain side
Set free within the beauty there
As the sunrise lets love flow
I'll hold you now inside my mind
Until the next days rise

Copyrights:JoyceWilbanksIvy©05-05-06

One Day I Will Be

A Butterfly 

I Want To Be A Butterfly

I want to be a butterfly
My wings fluttering through the winds
Escaping all my worldly fears
That are trapped here within
I want to be a butterfly
And sour the skies so high
Race toward the beauty
The skies now hold inside
Fly into the peace and serenity
Across the other side
And feel as though I left myself
so very far behind
I just want to be a butterfly
And soar the beauty held within the skies

Copyrights:JoyceWilbanksIvy©03-04-06