Just Look For The Love

Eyes Of Love

Eyes of love that want to share
A love so great none can compare
Lips of the lightest touch
Heart filled with love so much
A soul so full of life for me
I know this love just has to be
A voice that shares most everything
Inside I feel your love sting
Ears that hear my every word
One day this love will be heard
Inside my dreams I hear each night
Our love will one day sing so bright
Within your eyes I see it each day
A beautiful love has come my way

Copyrights:JoyceWilbanksIvy©10-30-05

Sometimes Death Is Better

Than Life 

Jimmy Now Soars

I was at work tonight and a girl at work ask me to write a poem to have read at her Uncles funeral tomorrow...boy was I put on the spot....But she said her mother ask her to write one or find a special one to be read for her...so this is what I wrote for her and her mother....I didn't know him so it was very hard.....

Jimmy Now Soars

Jimmy now soars the heavens high
with the Lord right by his side.
Gone from this earth so full of pain
now the Lords blessing they do rein.
He soars the heaven with wings of gold
we'll miss him here no longer to hold.
But deep inside we know he's at peace
for all his pain the Lord did ease.
Loved he was from us all
but now for Jimmy the Angels call.
He will now soar on his white cloud
with the Lord by his side standing so proud.
We will miss him on earth every single day
until we join him in heaven too stay.
Today we have to let him go
the hardest thing in life I know
But Jimmy soar the heavens high
as now we say our last good bye.

Copyrights:JoyceWilbanksIvy©10-24-05

Life

Isn't Over Yet

Always And Forever

Always and forever
I will love you.
From friends into lovers
our love had grown.
But somewhere along the way
I lost you.
Nothing I did
was ever good enough.
I tried to love you
for who you were.
I didn't want you
to change.
I fell in love with you
as you were.
But it seems
it's not me
you fell in love with.
Only the person
you tried
to change me into.
And that's
not me.
I can't change
independant
headstrong
outgoing
stubborn
friendly
caring
loving
And yes I
speak my mind.
But that is me
if you can't take me
the way I am.
Then I guess
you never loved
me
at all.
Just who you wanted me to
Be.
And I'm sorry
but that's not
Me.
I have to be
True
to myself.
Before I can be
True to
You.
Forever and Always
you will
Be
In
My Heart
and
My Soul

Copyrights:JoyceWilbanksIvy©10-24-05

But I Will Not Be Unhappy

 

Tired

Tired of the fighting
tired of the pain
tired of you
driving
me insane
If you can't love me
for who
I am
I'll let go now
and let your memories
see me through
I'm so tried
mind
body
and soul
Tried of wondering
what
our lives hold
Tired of my heart
aching
ripping apart
Tired of my soul
dying
inside
I'm just so tired
I want to
run from this place
and
once again
hide
I am gone now
from your
life
heart
and soul
Once my best friend
now
I am
nothing
to you
I am so damn tired
my
heart
has given up
No more
pain
you will not
drive me
insane

Copyrights:JoyceWilbanksIvy©2005

In The Skies

A Meaningless World 

Empty Sky

My hands now touch the empty sky
shadows dance as life stands still.
Pouring rain in my meaningless world
awaiting a fantasy to ignite inside.

Grasping nothing but a fading dream
as my hands reach out to the empty sky.
My lips now form meaningless words
as I lay here in empty dreams and scream.

Inside my heart a storm now rages
emptiness, loneliness, heartache.
That's all I find inside this mind
as I now turn all these empty pages.

There was a time I'd give anything to make you smile
a time when I would have done anything for you.
But that time has pasted and I no longer see
these dreams with you that lasted just a short while.

For time heals all within the heart
and each time I reach for that empty sky
a part of you dies here within my mind.
I will always love you but a part of me has died.

So I will keep reaching for those empty skies
as the memories of you fade away.
Until the day I no longer dream of you
and all this love for you finally dies.


Copyrights:JoyceWilbanksIvy©2005

Fear And Frustration Rule My Mind

 

I'll Never Break My Promise

I shall be here for you always
If ever you do decide to call
We were friends many years
If you should care to recall

What reasons could there be
You have chosen to ignore
As a friend I can be reached
Like many times before

I continue trying to reach you
As I hoped to keep in touch
Am I supposed to just forget
When we shared so very much

If you turned your back on me
Have the decency to explain
I never did break my promise
As your friend I shall remain

Promises are something sacred
and too you I promise this
I'll be here for you always
even if you've turned away

I know your life is busy
and time just slips away
but in my heart I promised
to be there for you each day

I will never break that promise
to my friend of many years
I will love for eternity
my best friend of many years

I will always love you
what ever lays in store
Just remember one thing
my heart is always an open door

Copyrights:JoyceWilbanksIvy©10-22-05

My Friendship Will Always Be Here

 

Within A Broken Heart

Pain...
Tension...
Fatigue...
Depression...
Anger,
Aggression,
Frustration.
All these unwanted sensations
Burning,
hurting,
tearing.
My heart alone,
cold and fearing.
Why won't you let me sleep,
let me rest,
Let me forget
To eliminate,
destroy all my regrets?
These memories inside,
swirling,
twirling,
unwilling to reside in the corner of my mind.
Repeating,
resisting,
insisting
Refusing to be denied its recognition of its position in my
Frustration,
Confusion,
Delusion.
Ah,
to close my eyes and let time fly by,
Because there's so much to gain by forgetting these dreams driving me insane. Unfocused,
unclear,
out of control,
My world spinning,
spinning,
spinning,
My sanity flying through the door.
My reason,
my logic,
oh,
it's tragic,
Like fine sands running through my hands,
I'm losing my mind.

Copyrights:JoyceWilbanksIvy©10-20-05

Just Another

Empty Page

In A Living Hell

Turmoil
Chaos
The confusion sinks in
These thoughts that
I'm having
my mind won't mend
So many
decisions
each with their own end
But none of
it matters
my mind just won't mend
I'm so lost
In this cage of confusion
If you ask me what I'm thinking
Just another empty page
No one can
Even tell
So I guess
I'm stuck here dying
In another living hell
Destruction
The fire
It burns all in sight
But no one
even notices
it happens at night
Ignore it
Deny it
Maybe it will go away
The screaming
at night and
pretending by day
I'm so lost
In this cage of confusion
If you ask me what I'm thinking
Just another empty page
No one can
Even tell
I guess I'm just stuck here dying
In another living hell
Why can't I
Ever tell
Forever I'll be dying
In another living hell

Copyrights:JoyceWilbanksIvy©10-20-05

Stuck Here

within the mind

Insanity

There you sit,
all alone,
Lost within your mind.
I can't tell
what you're thinking,
Or what you hope to find.
But as you sit there dazing,
Within your darkened room,
There's one thing that you do not know
The darkness is your doom.
All consuming,
all concealing,
Seems comforting at first.
But as your thoughts
get trapped inside,
Your head is going to burst.
Insanity is welcoming,
To make your thoughts be still.
But all it leaves' an empty shell,
You don't know how to fill.
So drag yourself
out from the dark,
And I'll be waiting there.
If you need help
just call for me,
For you,
I'll always care.

Copyrights:JoyceWilbanksIvy©2005

Is always with you 

I Love You

Craving to see your smile again
makes me wish
to turn back the time
from which I can get
a glance at you.
Thinking that one day
you could have been be mine.
How will I ever forget you,
the man who opened
my heart to love,
who inspired me with each new day
who gave me
the hope and strength
not to be afraid to fall in love.
And without you knowing it,
was you who did this for me.
Over the past years,
I set my heart to others,
never to truly be open,
If unopened
it can't be broken.
I thought that the blame was on me
but what could I do?
Not even one got the right key.
Not until
I met you again
after so many years.
Who would have thought
after so long
the many years
the tears
the heart ache
It would
Be you
Who opened my
lonely heart.
Trying to go on
without you in my mind,
is really hard today.
For the truth is,
in my entire life,
I found out,
it's in you
my world
keeps on turning.
At the right time,
whenever I get the chance
to express what I feel,
I'll let you read this poem
to let you know
how much I love you!
and for every moment
I set my thoughts on you,
I never, ever stopped dreaming
and praying that one day
you'll tell me, you love me
and trust me
with all your heart.

Copyrights:JoyceWilbanksIvy©10-19-05

Life Sucks.... 

Abandoned

In the black-eyed fever
Of the jagged night,
Spurned by the moon,
Stabbed by the light,

Too twisted to think,
Too ragged to sleep,
I lie broken in half
Unable to mend myself;

In the dead vacuum,
I feel much betrayed,
I feel quite frail,
I make vain excuses,

I rail against life,
But all to no avail;
In the razor dark,

Flopping in anguish
On my stinking bed,
Only one small fact
Sits Crystal clear:

In my moment of fear,
In my moment of pain,
When I needed it most,

Hope let me down
Just like a soft slimy slug,
It slithered out of my sight.

Copyrights:JoyceWilbanksIvy©10-19-05

My Heart

Belongs To You

To You Alone I Give The Key

To you alone I give the key.
I've tried so long and hard,
To make some sense of this,
Of what you mean to me.
But it's beyond all reason,
And words just don't mean much,
To explain what I feel and see.
sends my mind reeling,
Of a single kiss or warm embrace.
It's so cold without you here,
Hold me close if you don't mind,
I need your warmth,
to see your face.
Let me gaze into your eyes,
Deep into those starry skies,
And cradle the tender soul that cries.
Come here, my very best friend,
Please accept this love from me.
You are my heart;
you are my soul;
your ever breath
I breathe.
Take my hand;
feel the Love
from deep
inside
my very lonely heart.
To you alone I give this key.
My heart is open wide,
Come here,
come inside,
There's nothing left to hide.

Copyrights:JoyceWilbanksIvy©10-19-05

Feel The Trust Inside 

TRUST

Trust,
once it is broken,
can it ever be whole again,
Is it really possible to forget
the places that you've been?
Where does that fear go that arises inside,
the pain that was felt
when someone lied?
Is there love enough to overpower a broken trust,
make it shine again,wipe away the dust?
The answers are somewhere
deep within us all
some will remain down
others rise will they fall.
And it is within this journey,
that we learn who we are,
because we grow,
we learn
with each little scar.
How do we learn trust?
If you never trusted at all.
How do I make you see?
Without trust you have nothing;
no reason to go forward,
no reason to feel,
no reason to care.
I tell you now without trust
a relationship is worthless.
It will crumble and fall
no matter how much
Love you hold inside.
Trust me now
Trust me with your life
Trust me with your heart.
Put your hand in mine
Trust me
It is the only way!
I love you
more than life.
I will love you
throughout eternity.
Trust me now
you will hold
the most perfect Love
within your life.
Just Trust Me!

Copyrights:JoyceWilbanksIvy©10-19-05

No More

Empty Promises

EMPTY PROMISES

Please don’t throw empty promises,
Into the air,
It’s just too much to take.
You effect me like no other ,
I can’t take another break.
I know I said I could do this,
But to tell you the truth,
I don’t know.
I think it might be in over my head,
As my feelings continue to grow.
I know you’re worrying too,
But you’re feeling are not quite the same .
And you seem to have it
Stuck in your head
That good-bye
Is what must be said.
Don’t you see,
That you are wrong?
That doesn’t have to be.
We can make love work.
We don’t have to end this way.
But if you’ve got your mind set
Please don’t feed me your lines.
Don’t try to make me keep loving you.
If you’re not planning to be mine.
Something tells me
This won’t end well,
And I’m going to regret it.
But you will give me
Lasting memories,
I’m never going to forget .
I hate cliché’s of summer love
Leading to fall heart break.
But in this case I’ll compromise.
You’ll be my best mistake.

Copyrights:JoyceWilbanksIvy©10-12-05

Why Can't These Demons

Just Go Away

DEMONS

my demons came to pay me a visit today,
To ignore them , I tried ,
but they spoke anyway.
They had no good to speak of or teach,
Aware of the venom of their destructive speech.
words of evil they whispered to my ear,
Detaching my mind from the now and the here.
The talked of what I fear might someday show.
What I keep hidden, lest my peers should now.
What no one's allowed to hear or see,
Where no one's allowed other than me.
But lately , I seem to be increasingly aware,
That my restricted insecurities are always there.
You see, a voice in my mind told me today,
That my demons have never really ever gone away.

Copyrights:JoyceWilbanksIvy©10-13-05

With Love

All Things Are Possible

I Need You

I need you in my heart
I need you in my soul.
I need your arms around me
I am only yours to hold.

My need for you is great
my love for you is strong.
If I lose you now
I know I can't go on.

I need you in my life
from this day on.
I need you here with me
these days are growing long.

My night are even longer
without you by my side.
If we don't make it through this
I know I will surely die.

For so long I've cried these tears
not knowing what to do.
But deep inside my heart
it's your love that I hold true.

JoyceWilbanksIvy©10-18-05

MY LOVE IS STRONG

PEACE WITHIN ME IS BECAUSE OF YOUR LOVE....

LOVING YET ANOTHER DAY

I wait for the moment,
I get to see you again.
As my love grows for you,
more and more everyday.

I can't wait to have your arms around me,
in your so very loving way.
Showing me how your love will always be,
your love I cherish every single day.

Telling me how much you love me,
and how your love...grows stronger everyday.
Saying you can't see... a life without me
in such a loving way.


Staring into my eyes, kissing my lips so softly
embracing my heart...in your very special way.
showing me a love... I know is in your heart everyday
pulling me close to you... to love me yet another day.

Copyrights:JoyceWilbanksIvy©10-16-05

So Much Love

I Feel From You

THE LOVE I FEEL FROM YOU

Today I really need you,
tomorrow I need you more.
To have your arms around me,
to hold me forever more.

To show me all this love,
you seem to have inside.
Your arms that want to hold me,
and keep me safe from harm...

Your eyes that show a beauty,
a beauty I've never seen.
They tell me story,
of what your love really means.

Your touch...so soft and gentle
one I've never felt.
One that will stay in my heart,
One I'll never forget.

Copyrights:JoyceWilbanksIvy©10-15-05

Your Love Is As Pure

As The Beauty In The White Tulips

Pure LOVE

Your love is like a fresh new flower,
growing up from ground.
Like the beautiful stars,
that sparkle all around.

Your love is stronger than the winds,
that blows through the trees.
Stronger than anything
I will ever need.

Your love, I feel everyday
when I look in your eyes,
or when you whisper, I love you.
Your love shows in so many ways.

When you touch me, the way you do,
your love feels, so wonderful and so true.
I know your love will last forever
for my love is the same for you.

Copyrights:JoyceWilbanksIvy©10-16-05

I NEED YOU TO HOLD

NIGHTMARES

your love is like roaring thunder
growing louder as it comes near.
sending chills right through my body
making my heart tremble in fear.

your love is like the lightning
flashing right before my eyes.
sending bolts of electricity
right through my very bones.

making my body scream from within
the depts of my very soul.
for it's a fear that really scares me
cause it's you I need to hold.

as I scream out in the night
from fears i do not know.
I cannot find you anywhere
for you are not there for me to hold.

as I cry from this nightmare
it's you I need to find.
from all these fears inside me
it's you I cannot find.

Copyrights:JoyceWilbanksIvy©10-17-05

Sometimes Life

Just Scares Me

THESE FEARS

These fears are growing closer,
closer everyday
These fear I have inside me
are fears I cannot take.

Fears of losing you
after waiting all my life.
All these fears inside me
consume my crazy nights.

I know you tell me not to worry,
but worry is what I do.
For inside this crazy mind,
I wonder... what you will do.

I wonder how someone like you,
can love someone like me.
It's hard for me to understand
what is is you see.

When this crazy mind starts running
it's hard for me to think,
because now I can't see a life without you
it's something I just can't shake.

I do not feel so worthy
of this love you give to me.
Please ease this mind from worry
for these fears I cannot take.

Copyrights:JoyceWilbanksIvy©10-17-05

I Am

MISSING YOU

Secret Tears

I think of you in silence
I often speak your name
I feel again the bitter blow
That never should have come
Each morning when I wake
I know that you are gone
But no one knows my heartache
As I try to carry on
My heart still aches in sadness
And secret tears still flow
What it meant to lose you
No one will ever know
My thoughts are always with you
Your place no one can fill
In life I love you dearly
In death I'll love you still
They say that time heals everything
But I know it isn't so
Because it hurts as much today
As these secret tears still flow.

Copyrights:JoyceWilbanksIvy©10-16-05

I Do

LOVE YOU

LOVE FROM THE START

I live my life from day to day
sometimes not knowing what to say.
questioning things that shouldn't be
I just didn't know what was happening to me.

in this life you never know
just how much ones love can show.
what a difference it can make
to a heart with so much at stake.

I can't tell you so you'll never know
just how much it's made me grow.
to feel the love that I receive
it's true love I do believe.

two destinies have been entwined
in a life thats not so kind.
in my heart He knew my need
I know thats why He planted this seed.

so in my life i'll try to show
all this love, I now know.
to this man with a special heart
I know has loved me from the start.


Copyrights:JoyceWilbanksIvy©10-16-05

Love Sometimes

Breaks Your Heart

WAITING

Stuck in transition
unable to appreciate the present.
Longing for what the future holds
I am in constant waiting.

Will you be in my future
or will heartache fall on me.
No one knows for sure yet
they only all assume.

Making it hard to wait
wait for the days.
I will have someone to hold me close
through these lonely nights.

Someone I can depend on
without holding back.
No longer being doubtful
of what tomorrow will bring.

Copyrights:JoyceWilbanksIvy©10-13-05

The Wisdom

Of Love