MY HEART BELONGS TO YOU

YOU CAPTURED MY HEART AND SOUL

You Captured My Heart

You captivate my heart and soul
you make mind spin out of control.
Rummaging through these thoughts of mine
seeing your face just makes me shine.

Knowing one day you'll be there for me
makes my life worth living to see.
Taking away my every breath
takes away the sting of death.

Talking to you makes my heart bloom
takes away a lot of this gloom.
Seeing your eyes with their spark
makes my life, seem not so dark.

When you captured my lonely heart
you made me love you from the start.
I hope one day your love will show true
and then my life will never be blue.

So send your ray of sunshine my way
so I can have a happy day.
I send you mine each morning I wake
It's all there, for you to take.

Copyrights:JoyceWilbanksIvy©2004

5 CHILDREN SHARING LOVE THROUGH GOOD TIMES AND BAD

I CAN'T BELIEVE I PUT THIS HEAR

REMEMBER WHEN

Remember when!
We were so young, just little kids having fun
Dad was there and Mom was too.
2 little boys and 3 little girls
played in the cotton fields
having so much fun.
Playing on the crystal rocks
a mound of rock salt, next to the shed.
We love to pretend those rocks were our fortune and we were rich,
we just didn't realize how rich we were.
Remember when!
Big boy, Tony took care of me,
protecting me from everyone.
Beating my butt, but no one else could.
I remember when he broke his arm in school.
Dad came to pick him up,
they came to my class to tell me he wouldn't be on the bus.
To hell with that, they weren't leaving me there,
and they didn't either...I went with my brother...lol
He was my world and still is to this day...
LOVE YA ...BIG BOY
Remember when!
I'd ride my bike down the road,
never could stay on the damn thing.
Always getting hurt but trying again,
I almost lost my leg...but I surived.
Won't tell what I stuck in my ear...lol
Stupid me always doing something crazy,
but I lived through it all..
Remember when!
We went to the wrestling with our Dad,
me and Teddy boy loved to go with him.
Those times were fun, but it makes me sad.
I just wish, too turn back time,
to the days when we were young and Mom was here.
Remember when!
Little Jenny burnt her hand on that red hot stove.
She though it was pretty, and wouldn't stay away,
now she carries a scar to this day
I always thought that scar was cool.
Sorry Jenny for all the times
I would stand behind the door,
and scare the hell out of you...lol
But it was so much fun....
Remember when!
Poor little Julie, wouldn't keep her clothes on.
Getting mad cause Mom dressed us alike,
in those dresses she made for us.
And giving us those crazy hair styles she did,
it was funny,but we hated them.
Mom was so proud of those dresses,
but one thing Jenny, Julie paid me back.
She always scared the hell out of me
when I least expected it.
Remember when!
Mom stayed home with the kids.
Dad worked as hard as he could.
Just to give us the little things we had.
He gave us the most important thing of all,
Mom at home with her kids.
Remember when!
We'd go to the closet every Christmas
just to find our presents there.
Guess she never caught on to that one.
We Got You There Mom!
Remember when!
Mom would scream and I'd run to Dad.
I was his little girl, and it made Mom mad.
She never knew I loved her just as much,
Wish I could tell her now, but it's to late.
Remember when!
We all grew up, shared our love.
Throughout the years
we always knew,
this day would come.
The day we wouldn't
have a Mom.

Copyrights:JoyceWilbanksIvy©2004

I dedicate this to my brothers Tony and Teddy and my sisters Jenny and Julie..I love you all very much and cherish the memories of our childhood...growing up with mom and dad...We never had much to speak of...but we had the most important thing in the world...We had loving parents that stayed together until Sept.3,2004 when mom died...such a tragic day in all our lives...one I believe we will never get over...And we had a love for each other that has grown stronger over the years...and especially since moms death...Just remember we have each other and we have dad...Mom is with our brother Terry in heaven singing her songs to him now and I know she's happy...I love you all...Joyce

A LOVE NEVER FORGOTTEN 

To Share Her Beauty And Her Love

I see her wings just hanging there
and that beautiful head of hair.
Oh those slender hands she had
now that makes me very sad.

Just to think of her today
and how she went so far away.
She was so beautiful you should see
as she sat on my dad's knee.

Small and petite, was her build
all her memories, my heart is filled
with her beauty and her love
just waiting for us way up above.

Souring above the clouds so high
waiting there for us to fly.
Arms out stretched just waiting there
with all the love we once had to share.

We miss her in our life everyday
but we know one day we'll go her way.
to share in heavens glorious land
and once again we'll hold her hand.

Copyrights:JoyceWilbanksIvy©2004

Forever We Will Love

And miss you mom

Inside My Heart

Instilled inside a love so strong.
Inside my heart is were I long,
for my mother who's not here today.
The Lord came and took her away,
on that cool september day.
He sent his angels down our way,
to take my mother away from here.
To live in heaven where he is near.
Instilled inside a love so deep,
it hurts so bad it makes me weep.
To think of her not here today,
it makes me want to run away.
To find a place that I can hide,
because she's no longer by my side.
I feel her presence, it is so clear.
Oh, this woman she was so dear.
Now I live my life in fear,
because my mother is no longer here.
Inside my heart there's an empty space,
knowing life without her I must face.

Copyrights:JoyceWilbanksIvy©2004

Mom You Always Instilled

Inside Us .......A Love So Strong

A Love So Strong

Yes our love is so strong,
even with my mama gone.
Instilled in our hearts was a love,
now my mama is free as a dove.
She still blooms today,
even though she went away.
In our hearts she will live,
in our words that we give.
Our roots still stand strong,
with our father, for he's not gone.
With every heartbeat in my chest,
I know my mama is now at rest.

Copyrights:JoyceWilbanksIvy©2004

I love you mama...I wrote this poem after reading a poem my neice Toni D post on dreamers site..." This Tree" beautiful poem...and this was my comment to her poem...her poem sparked these words from my heart...We do have a very strong family and a great love for each other all the way down the line...our love seems to grow with each new child born in this family....it doesn't die as the line get's longer...my mother instilled that in of...and so did my father...love your family if you love no one else...love them...I Love You All...

WE LOVE YOU

Mama My Angel

Holiday's Without Mama

Our first year without Mama here,
but her presence I feel near.
Our holiday's will be so very sad,
but we will spend them with our Dad.

Christmas without Mom I can't comprehend,
I know my heart will never mend.
As people sing their songs of joy
my heart fills like a stupid toy.

One wound up and then let go,
I don't fill like hearing your hohoho.
Tensel and lights oh so bright,
all I feel is fright fright fright.

Just to hear those songs she sang,
my head is going bang bang bang.
I wish I could see her standing there,
singing to my children, but life isn't fair.

As I watch my father slip away,
thinking and talking of her all day.
I know these holiday's will be rough,
even though this man is tough.

In my heart I really know
all my misery, I should not show.
I know she wouldn't want it this way,
maybe I can forget, for just one day.

So this year, I'll be alone
this will cut me to the bone.
For my mother, I will stand proud,
while she rides upon her cloud.

I think I'll pretend that she is here,
and maybe then I won't shed a tear.
Just pretend it this time last year,
and maybe then she'll still be near.

Copyrights:JoyceWilbanksIvy©2004


My mother died Sept.3,2004 and these holiday's aren't very joyous for us this year...We love you Mama and miss you very much...I will stand proud Mama because I know that's what you would want...

2 Wonder People...Mama And Papa..

Beautiful Mama...I remember these day..they were so young...

GONE BUT FOREVER IN OUR HEARTS

The Lord came today..he took mama away,
now she flies high..way up in the skies.
At peace with her daddy...she so longed see,
a peace I know...is there for me.

Holding her son... she couldn't wait to see,
now in heaven...she is with thee.
So many tears...from a heart now free,
gone to her son... it was meant to be.

Mama I just didn't want you to go,
I still need the love...you did show.
I need you in my life...and now that will never be,
Because God came today...and took you from me.

Now you soar the heavens...free as can be,
free from the sorrows ...on earth you did see.
Away from a life...that was so hard on you,
free to love your son...something you were meant to do.

Mama I don't want to let you go,
but I know it's what God wants though.
I knew one day God would take you from me.
time for you to go with Terry you see.

So mama fly though the heavens, and be as happy as you can be.
and when I leave this earth...it will be you I come to see.
As sad as it may be... it was time for you to be with your son,
we had our time with you...now it's his...your work here is done.

Tomorrow mama we have to let you go,
the hardest thing is our lives I know.
But somewhere in our hearts, you will always be,
showing all the love...I know you had for me.

We will miss you mama,
more than you will ever know.
But somehow in this,
I really find a peace within my soul.

Copyrights:JoyceWilbanksIvy©2004



I wrote a poem the the morning after my mothers death...but I have revised it...I Dedicate this poem in loving memory to my mother...Minnie Lee Warren Wilbanks...who lost her life after a massive heart attack on Sept.3,2004...Be as happy as you can be..in heaven with your son..your dad...and your mother who joined you 27 short days after your death...I loved you more than you ever know...we all did Mama...I also dedicate this poem to my father...Thomas Wilbanks...the most wonderful man in the world...who has always been there for us...with a special love for my mother and for all his children...and to my brothers Tony and Teddy whom I love dearly...and to my wonderful sisters Jenny and Julie...I want to dedicate this poem to my best friend also...who has shown a great love for our family and read my poem at my mothers funeral... Just remember we still have each other and Mom is happy in heaven with Terry now...I love you all very much...Thank you all for the special love we have shared through the years...Joyce

THE FEARS WITHIN ONES SOUL

CAPTURED WITHIN THE STARECASE OF DOOM...

FEAR

All these visions inside my soul
no one else will ever know.
As this mirror, it does grow dim
a shadowy existence at it's rim.
As he shows his ghostly face
oh, my heart begins to race.
Shadowed by this creature here
his name many know, is called FEAR.
As I run and try to hide
he always finds me deep inside.
Running from these demons still
that's what he wants, it is his will.
Racing in time he's always near
this creature within,who is called FEAR.

Copyrights:JoyceWilbanksIvy©2004

I LOVE YOU MAMA 

BLINDED BY DEATH

hearts of sadness
grown so cold
blinded by death
growing so old
painful sorrow
set us free
no more death
it just can't be
8 is enough
in 2 short months
blinded by death
our hearts
have had enough

Copyrights:JoyceWilbanksIvy©2004

I wrote this poem after going to my aunts funeral today....the 8th death in our family...in 2 short months...our hearts can't take much more....

4 LITTLE GIRLS...GROWING UP IN MAMA AND PAPA'S.....HOUSE OF LOVE

BEAUTIFUL GIRLS GROWING UP IN A HOUSE OF LOVE...

MAMA AND PAPA'S, THE HOUSE OF MEMORIES

Pepsodent and apple shampoo
fake teeth holders pink and blue
Red Leather couch
and red room
games
chipwood walls
pretty and ugly and plain
The huge bookcase
filled with hundreds of books
read by the woman
who cleaned and cooked
Spiderweb candleholder
made of cast iron and crimson felt
hung on the wall
where few candles would melt
Cornbread in the kitchen
preachin' on tv
we're climblin' the hall walls
and Mama's makin' tea
Mama and Papa's house
the best place
we had fun
playin' inside
playin' in the sun
Clothes on the line
and a popsicle swing
sittin' on the porch
was the best time to sing
Makin' mud pies
and a salad for Polly
burying treasure
and playin' with dolly
Stayin' up late watchin' CMT
waitin' for Fancy'
til we fell asleep
Cabbage Patch Kids
and Barbie Dolls
tryin' to stay awake
to see Santa Claus
Huntin' easter eggs
pink, yellow, green, and blue
catchin' leaves and
spinnin' in circles too
Dancin' to the kids
that fell off the block
groanin' when bedtime
was eight o'clock
Chickens and bunnies
dogs and cats
basketballs over the wire
baseballs and bats
Willow tree and big open field
Washer and dryer and stove and fridge
all on the porch
homemade ice cream
Honeysuckle and daffodils
tiny wild strawberrie
mushed by cartwheels
Hot potato andpeppermint sticks
bubblegum,bubblegum, in a dish
Big bad wolf and
mother may i
Simon says
and i spy
Carvin' in the posts and
diggin' in the sand
catchin' lightnin' bugs
and smearin' 'em on our hands
Funeral for Goldie
and a new born kitty
Beauty salon in town
office in the city"
just a boy and girl
in a little canoe
"well if you want out it's up to you
Makin' up cheersand talkin'
about our dreams
these were a few
of our favorite things
Mandy was bossy
stingy was Nicky
Elizabeth was sweet
and I was sneaky
Four beautiful little girls
three with straight hair
one with curls
These are the memories
I have when I was a little girl
my two favorite cousins
and my big sissie was my world
The house is gone
along with Mama...
Will they wake up and remember
how we had it so good?
That house..is a memory
That woman... is an angel
in me, in them
and she will find a way
She's in her House
waitin' for the songs
of fate to sing on us
and we'll be home again

written: January 22, 2004by: toni d wilbanksrevised(November 15, 2004) and will possibly be revised again

A WORE TORN HEART... 47 YEARS OF LOVE THEY SHARED

LOST LOVE ...WIFE OF 47 YEARS

DADDY

Mama... daddy misses you so much....We all do....Jordan and Taylor are lost without you....But poor papa has been throught hell...I guess Aunt Claudia joined all of you today....We keep adding beauty to heaven there won't be any left here....It bothers me mama... when daddy says he's ready to join you...I know he is... but we can't take another death...I love you mama and miss you very much....

ANOTHER TRAGIC DAY

REST IN PEACE AUNT CLAUDIA

Death

Seems these days that's all we know... DEATH....Since Sept.3,2004 starting with the sudden death of my mother...then Sept.30 2004 my grandmother...one week later a cousin...2 weeks later 2 more cousins...and now today Nov.15,2004 my Aunt Claudia died...Guess they are have one big party in heaven...With my mother's death the beginning where will it end...My girls are having a rough time adjusting..I guess we all are....She was their mother....poor Jordan..she keeps it in...and Taylor oh my she let's it out...boy does she....maybe one day things will be normal....

IMPRISONED IN THIS DARKENED DOOM 

IMPRISONED

In this vessel lays a soul,
only wanting to fulfill it's role.
Imprisoned by a darkened heart,
just waiting for a fresh new start.

A gleam of love and hate inside
no where else to run and hide.
Desperately seeking it's place in life
in a world so filled with strife.

Plagued by haunting visions still
inside my mind they are real.
As the reaper smirks, and slips away
telling me, he'll be back another day.

Camouflaged in a gruesome black
he takes away, but never gives back.
But when he comes, this time for me
inside my heart I will be free.

Copyrights:JoyceWilbanksIvy©2004

THE GRIM REAPER CAME FOR ME

BUT HE LOST HIS FIGHT

I CHEATED DEATH

Tuesday death came knocking
at my hearts door.
And I cheated death once more.

The grim reaper had to leave,
at the hospital,I gave him a fight,
cause I wasn't ready, to go into the light.

They gave me a shot of epinephrine
and with that I did win.
and the reaper had to leave me again.

As my brother told my sister one year ago
DON'T GO INTO THE LIGHT.
Well I gave that monster a good old fight.

They got my adrenalin flowing right
now I'm at home ready to write.
And the reaper has lost his fight.

He may have had his grip on me
now I laugh in his face,
Because this time I won the race.

Copyrights:JoyceWilbanksIvy©2004


I wrote this poem because of a stupid thing I did Tuesday and almost cost me my life...I mixed amino and Bleach to clean and messed up my lungs...was hospitalized and now I am on breathing treatments and protozoan ...and will be for a while...But I was able to cheat death this time...and I am home ready to write...So people remember never be an idiot like me.....Don't mix chemicals...lol....it can kill you....

REST IN PEACE MAMA

WE MISS YOU VERY MUCH Nov.2004

A CROSS FOR ALL OUR LOVE FOR YOU MAMA

Mama this cross was made in loving memory of you and all the love you brought into our lives... Made by Danny and place on you grave by Mandy...we miss you so much mama...you will be in our hearts forever....This cross symbolizes all our love for you mama....

WE LOVE YOU MAMA

Gone but forever in our hearts.SEPT 6, 2004

MY MOTHERS DEATH

My mothers death... heavy on my mind today...why did she have to go away...how do we go on...I go to her graveside...just to talk...tell her i'm sorry for not being there when she needed me...sorry for putting so much on her...sorry for not being a better daughter to her...sorry for all the fights...sorry for being so weak after Ben left...sorry for not telling her I was sorry...sorry for not going to see her more...sorry for not calling her more....If you were here mama..I'd tell you all these things...but your not...your body is in the ground...and thats all I have to talk to now...I see you mama plain as day...but I can't hear your voice.... We love you mama and miss you so much....I"M SORRY MAMA

Inside my mind...

Are the images that I hold...

REFLECTED VISIONS

Reflected visions
inside my soul.
Reflections of you
that I hold.

I stand before my mirror,
it's not me that I see.
Nothing but a reflection
of you inside me.

Hollow eyed ghost
haunting my soul.
Existence of shadows
my eyes behold.

Echoing your voice
inside my head.
Letting me know
that you're not dead.

Reflected visions
of scattered screams.
Inside this mirror
you hold my dreams.


Copyrights:JoyceWilbanksIvy©2004

TORN BETWEEN HEART AND MIND 

SCREWED UP MIND

"The bad things in life open your eyes to the good things you weren't paying attention to before."

This statement is so true...open your eyes..Before the good things in life pass you by....You know where you are today...but you never know where you'll be tomorrow....I let a lot of good things pass by in my life...never realizing it until it was to late... I have something good in my life right now... will I be stupid again...will I let the good things slip by...Torn between my heart and my mind...doing what would be smart...Confussion...that's my life...wanting one..having another..damn what do you do...heart and mind...they can fuck you up...big time...do you live for yourself...or do you live for your kids....do you hurt one...do you hurt the other...you love him...but will your kids....your kids love him...but do you...will he always be there for you...or will he go away too...The big question...do you listen to your heart..or do you listen to your mind...hell who knows....Screwed up mind again today....

YOUR PASSION BURNS FROM WITHIN YOUR EYES

A PASSION WITHIN

PASSIONS

The fires burn within me a crimson red
piercing my soul fiercely within.
Flooding my heart with a passionate love
drawing on this need I have inside.
Emerging passions plummet my soul
I am yours, forever to hold.
Choking back the tears, for your arms I can't wait
to wrap around me, ever so tight.
You breath inside me a passion so deep
with every touch, my body trembles in defeat.
Never have I felt a passion like this,
from you, all it takes is just one kiss.

Copyrights:JoyceWilbanksIvy©2004

I THINK OF YOU FROM MORNING TIL NIGHT

EMOTIONS

Emotions running high within my mind
as I lay here,pinned by the love we shared.
Tarnished but not lost, strained but not forgotten
delayed for now, by things gone wrong.
You are my soul, the healer of my heart.
You infiltrate my mind like day's first light,
and linger, softly, with the coming night.
You fill my sleep with restless dreams,
and visions of your love so kind.
Your touch,your scent, envelopes me,
My heart pounds relentlessly for you.
Our souls united, forever as one.

Copyrights:JoyceWilbanksIvy©2004

WHERE DO I GO FROM HERE 

STUCK IN TRANSITION

one heart
one soul
one crazy mind
what to do
I really don't know
turmoil and despair
that where I am
not knowing what to do
what to say
what to write
stuck in transition
what happened to my heart
I can't say
it just went away
no longer can I think
wanting to love
wanting to live
wanting to die
wishing I was never born
knowing thats wrong
wishing my life away
wanting to run
but my feet won't move
heart turned upside down
soul ripped out from within
another day
how do I begin
stuck in transition
I just can't go on.

Copyrights:JoyceWilbanksIvy©2004

Mama I Know Your Up There

MY SHINING STAR

MY BRIGHT AND SHINING STAR

I look up into the skies tonight
I see the stars they burn so bright.
There's one big star that seems to shine,
I know that star it must be mine.

It glimmers and shines so bright you see
I know it's my MOM, it has to be.
One big wink, to show me she's there
letting me know she still cares.

Lighting up the big dark skies
as she shows me where she flies.
Watching over us by the night
as a star she shines so bright.

I feel her love with me each day
as my star she lights my way.
As the night comes to an end
all my love, to her I send.

Copyrights:JoyceWilbanksIvy©2004

I love you mom....

HEARTS TORN APART

BROKEN HEARTS SEPT.6,2004

MOM

It's been two months today
since you died, and went away.
You left our lives without warning,
and today we're still in mourning.

All your love, we miss so much,
Oh, we long for your loving touch.
My girls they miss you in their lives
with them, your love it never dies.

Inside your children, you still live
from all the love, you did give.
All our hearts are broken still
I hope in time they will heal.

We miss you MOM, and DAD does too
we know in life your love was true.

Copy Rights@ Joyce Wilbanks Ivy

MOM we miss you so much, it seems like yesterday you were here with us...but now your gone...and there's nothing we can do...We all love and miss you so very much....

My Love For You Grows

Like the flowers in the sun.

MY DREAM ( REVISED)

When I saw you
for the first time.
Something inside me
knew you were the one.

My heart longed
for someone like you.
Someone to talk to
and make me feel new.

When you kissed me
my heart knew.
That someone
had to be you.

You are my dreams
within my heart.
Inside my soul
I knew it from the start.

Copyrights:JoyceWilbanksIvy©2004

MUSHROOMED IN THE SILENCE